I'm here, I'm queer, and I don't want any more bears!

So... I'm having a little break down. 

I don't even remember the last weight I posted but I'm at 243 right now. Not so happy with this. 

I am taking this nutrition class right now and I am surprised at how much I am learning. I thought I pretty much knew it all. But there are some changes that I have made because I have been so concerned with the calorie number and not thinking about the value of the food. I switched all grains to whole grain when at all possible. The carbs may be the same but because of the added fiber and non processed wheat grain it takes your body 3 times as long to break down the carbs into sugar, therefore avoiding the SPIKE in blood sugar that causes your pancreas to go on an insulin roller coaster. Also making sure the oils you use for cooking and what not have mostly polyunsaturated fats. These are: Best: Safflower, Canola Better: Flaxseed, Walnut, Sunflower and Good: Olive, Peanut (for high heat). Worst: Coconut, Butter, Lard. If you want to check your oils, look for the ones with he highest polyunsaturated fats. These actually help lower bad cholesterol. So these are just a few things that I am changing. So that's good. But about that mental break down...

I started taking Phentermine last week. Susie had great success early and my doctor said it was fine so I am trying it. I have only lost 1 lb. I walk a lot. I would say about 2 hours a week. I still can not run very far with out giving myself a migraine. So I thought of a solution. I have been wanting a bike for a long time. I don't want to have to drive my car any place that I could ride a bike. I figure it will save me money and be healthy. So the first chance I got, I rode my bike to the gym and back (about 6 mi) and did a 30min elliptical work out. My legs were wobbly and tired but I didn't think I was breathing exceptionally hard. I felt great then that night about 10pm I got the most excruciating migraine of my life. I couldn't sleep even after taking a vicoden and a sleeping pill. I couldn't lay down because my pillow felt like it was a baseball bat smacking me in the skull. I sat on my couch writhing in pain for 18 hours. I wasted an entire day and at the end of it I was so exhausted that I had to sleep forever. So goodbye Thursday I missed you completely! Is that what I get for riding my bike?... For trying to be healthy? I know I sound like a broken record but I feel hopeless and sad.  

I don't feel like giving up. But I sure wish I knew what to do next.      

This weeks weigh in

Okay so I weighed in today at WW it has been two weeks since my last official weigh in. so here is a little recap
Jan 20th up 2lbs to 249.8
Jan 27 down .2 to 249.6
Feb 3 no official weigh in


Monday 2/7 I stood on Marie's scale at 251 lbs
Wed 2/9 I again stood on Marie"s scale at 243 lbs


Feb 10 down to 243.0 (officially I am down 6.6lbs from my last WW meeting, but from Monday I am down 8lbs)

So what happened on Monday? Well I decided I needed a boost in the weight loss area, So I got some information from Christi on her pre-op liquid diet. (She had lived on it for 2 weeks). It consists of Protein Shakes, Multi vitamins, Broths, Veggie juices, and sugar free popsicles and Jello. I decided that I would do this for a week to help me focus on what I needed to do to start dropping the pounds. It has been 3.5 days and it has been easier than I expected. I have already sat down and planned out my menus for next week so I can focus on continuing to drop the weight instead of just putting it all back on.

Thanks for all the support that I get from you all.

Nancy

Clear Liquids...

This is the end of my 6th day of clear liquids (plus protien drinks), and I have lost 12lbs this week. It has been easier than I thought it would be..I am not really hungry, but I do want food...if that makes sense. I will not cheat though. Just not worth it. I have 8 more days of this...then on to the next step.

My week and a half

I didn't weigh in last week because I was traveling back from Las Vegas on Monday. But I did brave the scale on Wednesday morning. I was afraid. We know that Vegas is a place for indulgence, even way over indulgence. Let me tell you, what happens in Vegas does not necessarily stay in Vegas. Well I worked really hard at not over indulging and whoopee, I was down a pound and a half.

Bad habits = bad weigh in

So i was up this week. Up like 2 lbs. I have not been even thinking of the new program or tracking or anything. So I am commiting myself to be more focused. Gazelle like intensity. I can do better this week. I will do better this week.

Good luck to you all.

Nancy

Down a little

Okay so I was down this week WOO HOO!

.2 lbs!. It is momentum!

Lois is still working at it.

I was "weigh" up after the Christmas/New Years weeks. Ouch. So I weighed in at about 167 and nothing was fitting. Then last Monday I was down to 163, still have a ways to go. Today I weighed in at 162.4, that is down by just over half a pound. I am good with that although I am looking for about a pound a week for the next 10 weeks. Nancy, maybe I wnat to learn more about this new WW system. See if I can change things up a little. Also the online program has no sign up fees right now. Don't know what the monthly fees are though. It is good to kow that we are all in this together.